Too long, too long

Yes, its true. I feel like its taking too long to leave. You see, last time I left Alaska, I wanted to leave because I was sick and tired of it. I hated waiting on every last little day to end. It turned out to be me just wanting an excuse to go to bed, just to get up and do it all over again. Then, Jehovah looked down at my useless life and slapped a blessing of unimaginable weight and significance on me. Bethel. I honestly believe that the best thing that I got from Bethel was perspective. It was that perspective that made me want to go to Gilead, and made me want to reach out for more. It transformed me. I cant even explain it with words. Tears in my eyes and everything, Bethel was...breathtaking. In so many ways. Because of a freedom that it gave me, I look at everything with new focus. Now, I love Alaska, and I dont have anymore bitterness to it. Now, I am happy being single and instead focusing on my service to Jehovah more. Marriage will come, sure, but I have much to do before I even want to consider trying to care for a family. I know that right now I would flop and fail as a husband, and I would hate to put my wife through that.

I mean come on! This is awesome!

Anyways, about Alaska. I have come to really love Alaska for what it is. Jehovah has created so many different types of beauty, and Alaska claims a lot of that. Its true that you take it for granted, but I have been able to get a better viewpoint on it. Now, when I leave for Africa, I think I will look back at my time in Alaska as a blessing. I will always consider little old Kenai as 'Home', no matter where I go. *sigh* It makes me sad to think about leaving my home.

Alaska, you will always be 'home' in my heart.

                                                                Nevertheless, the distant horizon is a goal that is set in my heart. Home will always be waiting for me to come back. For now, though, its time to set aside such a beautiful haven and stretch out to new skylines. Jehovah as my power, no horizon is unreachable, and no skyline is too far. Due only to his unwavering support and love, His servants are bound by no restrictions or weaknesses, but instead have power beyond what is normal to accomplish things that they never imagined they were capable of. Its time that Trevor finds a new home to call his haven, and I am sure that, if I remain faithful and true, Jehovah will follow me where ever I go in his service. So thanks to Jehovah for allowing me to stretch beyond my hearts limits, and instead go further than I had ever imagined. He has really, honestly blessed me in more ways than I even know how to count. Alright, enough mushy talk. Time to do something manly...

*flex* Yeah, that'll do.